Hi! Infinityface here and it is nice to meet you!
It is 10:22pm on Oct 26 2014 and this is the very moment when I decide that I will no longer wait for the right time to do what I've always wanted to do -blog and vlog a journey of Me! I have had one hell of a life so far and I am ready to take new turns and seek new adventures for my life.
I was once married for 6 years and I have a beautiful baby boy who is currently 8years old. My marriage ended due to abuse and infidelity. Being the person i am and the environment and love I received from my family i finally realized the strength and power i possessed and made the decision to leave for my son's and I well being. I briefly stated that to say since being divorced i have suffered greatly from self esteem issues. One thing I can say about my family is low self esteem didn't exist! I've never- nor has any other woman in my family- suffered from image and esteem issues. All while growing up I always heard how pretty I was from my family and their friends I am a dark skinned black woman with meat on my bones and you couldn't- at the time- tell me that I wasn't FINE! lol
In any rate, I have been divorced for 4 years and I have now realized that the girl has let herself GO! I am now 31 and I am ready to live life. I'm ready for a social life! I ready to get out in Minneapolis and see what this city has to offer! I'm ready to feel excited to wear new clothing without feeling fat and unattractive! I am tired of feeling the way I am. I am also tired of the way I feel. And you know what? I am also tired of being alone. I haven't been on a date since I got married!! Dammmmmnnnn G!! 10 years??? Yes girl, 10 years I have been out of the game. Needless to say I am a nervous wreck when it comes to finding a mate. (Sighs) It's funny cause I am a huge flirt but as soon as the conversation makes a turn into "unknown" territory, I become a big goof and start cracking jokes and doing weird stuff to, I guess make myself less attractive. Girl, I don't know. But what I do know is I am ready to be the old me again.
Sooo.... As I stated I've always wanted to blog about my journey into let's just say..... Life. I no longer want to live. I want a life. I want to laugh and more importantly I want a healthy life. I've wasted so many years pleasing people and never really did anything for myself. So tonight i have made the decision to embark on the mission to make Infinityface happy!
There are 4 areas in my life that I want to improve on
1. Want to be vegan- my family has such a great history of poor health and I have decided that the curse will stop with me! One of my sisters said she broke the curse of my family having babies out of wedlock. So I believe this is my mission to stop poor health. I am the last generation.
2. Overall fitness- I will enlist a personal trainer to help me achieve my goal of ultimately entering in a woman's fitness competition.
3. Spirituality- my goal is to figure out this meditation and inner peace stuff so I can have a more balanced life. The goal is to have a balance mind body and soul. If you think positive you'll have a positive life. You know, that stuff! Lol.
4. And finally I want to focus more on my appearance. I have been reading this book called The Rules and years ago I read Kimora Lee's Fabulosity and apparently your image is everything when trying to make major moves. Image improves your self esteem and increases your chances or attracting a mate... Go figure. This whole time I thought it was my personality.
Please join me on this ride as I'm sure it will be a sho nuff roller coaster. I will also begin vlogs on YouTube so you guys can have a visual. This is gonna be fun!
Thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope I have inspired you to continue to check in on me and witness this late bloomer grow into a mighty and commanding flower.
